I was thinking yesterday that maybe the reason that I had Maya was to help me figure out what I wanted to do with my life. Before I had her, I had absolutely no idea who I was, let alone what I wanted to be. I tried a few things but nothing really fit me. But now I know for sure. And maybe I’ll go on to do something amazing with it that will help tons of other moms. I’m devastated that I had to lose Maya. But maybe, eventually, some good will come of it.