Dear Maya,

Hey Princess. It’s been a while since I’ve written to you. Sorry for that. I miss you so much. It should be getting easier, but it’s not. Everyday without you is even harder than the last. I miss everything about you. Even the stuff that I didn’t like when you were here, like the crying, and the not sleeping. I miss being woken up at night. I miss you screaming into my ear for hours. Because at least you were alive. I just wish I hadn’t taken it all for granted. I never thought something like this would actually happen. Everyone talks about SIDS and the precautions, and I heard stories about families that had their babies die of SIDS. But I never thought it could happen to ME. To my baby. That’s just not right. Why did it have to be you? You were so perfect. I know you are an angel now though. You always were an angel. But now you have your wings. I’m sure they look beautiful on you too. And you’re having the time of your life flying around and playing. And your feet are probably stinky and covered in toe jam. And there’s probably lint in your armpits. And you’re probably still kicking your right sock off all the time. And smiling all bashful at everyone you meet. I’ll never forget that smile. It could change my entire day seeing that. It made everything worth it. I miss it so much. I miss you so much. I wish you could come back, baby. Daddy and I need you.


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